Thursday, September 24, 2009

My Internal Shift

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about this internal shift of priorities I have going on inside of me. I am not exactly sure what it all means so if this post seems a little all over the place that is because I haven’t figured it all out yet. I don’t necessarily think that the core of what makes me “Emily” has changed but the things that come in and out of my brain are so different from what they used to be. I never imagined my thoughts would float to Ethiopia so frequently or about adoption awareness or the AIDS crisis or clean water. These are all things that if someone brought it up in conversation then yes I would think about it but never on my own and never a million times a day. All of these thoughts are still fresh and new so I know that it is probably wise to linger on it for a while and see where it all leads me but it is hard not to wonder. I like to think that we all have our own calling in life and it takes certain life experiences to help us figure out what it is. I know I am still on this search but I have a feeling that this adoption journey is leading me somewhere truly rewarding and wonderful. I’ll let you know if I ever figure it out.

I read a poem recently (in something my mom gave me of course) that pushed me to think more about what my passions are and how I want to live out those passions. I thought I would share.

Calling -by Kathleen Pahl

Wake up! God is calling! The Earth, the people, the animals are calling.
The blades of grass, the rocks, the soil are calling.
The air, the now, the moment is calling. God, the universe, the world is calling.
LIFE is calling!
Did you know that...... Your smile is the rising sun?
Your hug is a cradle? Your kind words are medicine?
Your labor is a seed? Your visit is a song?
You have a calling!
It’s not being sugary fake. It’s as real as the blood in your veins.
You may not know what your calling is, but love will lead you to it.
Your calling may appear to be small, but it’s actually huge!
It may vary from year to year moment to moment.
It could be to: learn, help, feel, be, act, sing, write, work, clean, hug,
hold, march, watch, give, receive, bless, dress, cook, hear, text, call,
dance, run, draw, stop, start, move, plant, sculpt, stretch, teach, lift,
rest, mend, lend, make, teach, follow, or lead.
You may never see the end result, but, do it anyway!
You are needed.
Find your calling. Find yourself.
You are needed, Now and always.
Wake up! God is calling!


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6 comments:

  1. LeahSeptember 25, 2009 at 8:52 AM

    Wow. . . That is a really beautiful poem. I understand completely about your thoughts shifting. So are mine! Priorities are different and although I'm still me, I'm definitely different in ways. I think going through something this large, it would be hard not to change a bit through the process.

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  2. MaribethSeptember 25, 2009 at 10:25 AM

    Yeah, Emily. I'm with you. I've had a lot of these same thoughts running through my head. I haven't worked it out either, and truthfully I probably won't for a while. Sometimes the journey is as important as the destination, and I think that we will figure it out when the time is right and we are truly ready.

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  3. AmySeptember 25, 2009 at 3:35 PM

    I feel the same way. I am just not sure what God or the Universe is calling me to do. I often wonder if it is right in front of me and I just don' t see it. Or will it come to me in a epiphany- maybe once our child is home? I would really love a clear cut slap you in the face kind of an answer.

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  4. TonySeptember 26, 2009 at 9:55 PM

    I think you and I should have drinks after work some time.

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  5. SamSeptember 27, 2009 at 10:29 PM

    i suck at blogging and reading them these days. yay you are on wait list woooooo hooooooo its so exciting isnt it?

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  6. Mrs. MSeptember 29, 2009 at 5:20 PM

    Wow! I'm so proud of you, Emmy- it seems like you are going through a bit of a transformation. You are becoming a mom, which changes/shifts things too. You'll do great things in the world, I know it. And it all starts with you and Damon receiving your child!

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